Coward

Yesterday after having spent more than six hours at a café with Green Fairy studying, drinking lot’s and lot’s of tea and talking, I had a lot of trouble winding down. So I ended up tagging along with Black Lotus, Cute Geek and a couple of their friends when they went out clubbing ^^

At the club I saw this really cute girl, but I was too scared to go up to her and say hi. After angsting about it for a while some guy started dancing with her and a while later I saw them making out :(

Just before we left Black Lotus literally dragged me up to her and made me say hi. She seemed nice too ^^ I just wish I’d had the guts to actually talk to her a bit earlier that night…

Halloween the Longer Version

I’d promised Green Fairy that I’d get some pictures of the Halloween outfit for her. She helped me out A LOT. There would be no awesome outfit without her :D So I texted Raven, who works as a photographer and asked him if he could help me out. He said he’d be happy to help me out ^^

At first I pretty much just looked like a deer caught in headlights on all the pics. Then Raven put on som Günther music and acted really silly so I just started laughing a lot. We got some pretty good pictures :)

At the party later that night I had a lot of fun ’till Frog got me bit too drunk. I left a bit early and ended up watching a movie and discussion religion and politics with Raven ^^

So all in all I had a great night :D

Birthday x2 + some drama

Thursday was both Black Lotus’ and Frog’s birthday. On Friday we threw a surprise party for Black Lotus. On Saturday both of them were going clubbing so I didn’t know whos party to go to. I texted a bit with Cute Geek (who’s really good friends with Black Lotus) and some of the things he said made me kinda pissed off and worried that he was jealous. I don’t do jealousy!

Anyway, since I’d been to Black Lotus’ surprise party I decided to go to Frog’s party. I had a lot of fun there, when I wasn’t thinking about Cute Geek’s maybe-jealousy. After a while we headed out to a club and a while after we got there I spotted Black Lotus and his friends too! Both groups of people ended up at the same place :D

My only worry was that Cute Geek would get hurt or that I wouldn’t know what to do with both guys I’m seeing right now at the same place. Cute Geek wasn’t with Black Lotus though… And they didn’t even know if he was going to show up. So I had a lot of fun dancing and drinking and making out and stuff like that ^^

Then Cute Geek showed up and was super drunk. Drunk enough to be really annoying and kinda clingy. So I kinda avoided him a bit to be honest. Usually I really like that guy, yesterday I was mostly just annoyed.

I went home with Frog, and we were supposed to just sleep but of course we ended up having sex. We pretty much always have sex when we see each other. The only times we haven’t had sex has been when we’ve been in public and once we came close anyway xD

This morning I got a text from Cute Geek saying sorry, and on my way home from Frog we talked on the phone and I told him why I was annoyed. He said that he hadn’t been jealous, but I’m not completely sure I believe him ><

About an hour ago someone rand my door bell and when I opened the door there was a vodka bottle with water and a rose in it. Attached to the rose was a card saying “[Mortality], Sorry”. When I looked out on the street I saw a car I recognised as his leaving.

Crazy Weekend!

Thursday: I was working at a dinner party with 69 guests. Setting up tables, serving food (thankfully I didn’t have to help out with the dishes <3) After the dinner it was a regular pub/party/not sure what to call it. I was in the bar or running around picking up empty bottles and glasses. Lot’s of running around and getting hit on by waay too drunk customers. Actually had a lot of fun ^^ But was soo tired when I got home. School had started at 9AM, I started working ~5PM and got home at 4AM.

Friday: Clubbing with Ninja and Cute Geek. We also picked up a day after pill for Ninja. On the way there we decided to get married on facebook :D I love that girl! I’m missing her so much already…. So anyway, since I was married Cute Geek had to ask permission to kiss me xD Ninja said it was fine as long as I kissed her too every time I kissed him. So I pretty much got a lot of kisses that night ^^ Oh, and Cute Geek can DANCE! How did I miss that? I have been out with him before… I think I’m falling for him actually :$ Not sure if that’s a good idea or not.

Saturday: I was the guest at a dinner party thingy similar to the one where I’d worked on Thursday. I got too drunk during the dinner but sobered up a bit after ^^ Met a bunch of new people and had a lot of fun ^^ I also made out with one of the guys working xD I started talking to him at some point and we danced a bit on his “break” (he just took one xD).

He saw my ring* and asked if I was engaged. I told him that I’m not engaged but if an annoying guy hits on me I might pretend I am. He took that to mean that I didn’t think he was annoying. Then his boss came and told him to get back to work. Right before he left he kissed me. Later that night he pretty much pulled me away from my friends and pushed me up against a door and kissed me.

“Hey, you’re pretty drunk.. Maybe I shouldn’t do this,” he said after a minute or so. He was sober and I was definitely not sober.
“I’m not too drunk to know what I’m doing,” I said and kissed him. He got my number and we’re planning on meeting up sometime next week ^^ If I see him again he’ll get a name here, and I have the perfect one :D

*I have a very pretty white gold and diamond ring that looks a bit like an engagement ring.

Going Out

Me and Ninja are going out tonight :D Pixie might tag along too ^^ I’m so looking forward to it :D

Drunk Texting

Text conversation between me and Paul last night:
Paul: Come over and sleep?
Me: I’m with a friend.. Rain check?
Paul: Fu
Me: …
Paul: I’m sleeping with another girl instead. At least!
Me: be my guest
Paul: Stop bothering me, I’m fucking

It should surprise no one that I wasn’t very happy with those texts. A few minutes ago Paul got online on msn and IMed me.

Paul: Hey babe!
Me: hi
Paul: How are you?
Me: Fine
Paul: nice
Paul: what have you been up to this weekend?
Me: movie night friday, seeing friends on saturday
Paul: ok
Paul: sounds nice
Me: you?
Paul: Partied hard
Paul: Friday preparty at my place and then clubbing, saturday my uncle’s 50th
Me: k
Paul: You’re really short with me today
Me: maybe
Paul: why??
Paul: Annoyed with me? :o
Me: maybe a bit
Paul: Why?
Me: might just overreact
Paul: maybe.. but what was there to overreact about?
Me: how drunk were you yesterday?
Paul: enough
Paul: but how would you’ve noticed that?
Me: check your outbox in your cell
Paul: oh
Paul: oops
Paul: why would I write that?!?

So he basically didn’t even remember… And now I don’t know what to do…

Birthday Celebraition

It was my 21st last Friday and this weekend I was at my mum’s place for presents and cake :D I got some lovely presens:

I’ve wanted pink skullcandy headphones for a while now :D Wiiee :D And I got one of these:

Not me in the pic btw, I found it on google. I also got one of those in blue and white :D I think I might be in a pink period right now xD Oh, and I got a gift card for Lush from my brother. I also got to hang out with Nadia :D I hadn’t met her in aaageees! So it wa great seeing her again :D Her kids are really cute. Her oldest (who just turned five) said that if you got nothing nice to say you shouldn’t say anything. <3 her kids!

BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!!

Yesterday was my 21st birthday and I had a BLAST! :D

The day started with a school lesson. Black Lotus showed up and I got a hug :D

After lunch a day full of activities/competitions between groups for the new students started. We started of meeting up our group in a classroom and another guy who’s also a student mentor had them all sing happy birthday for me :D During the day I got a bunch of birthday wishes and “my kids” did really well in the competitions too ^^

My grandparents managed to time in the five minutes that I wasn’t busy to call and wish me a happy birthday too and I got a bunch of texts :D

When we went to have dinner there’d been a mix up in the kitchen so there was no food for me. Due to lack of sleep and being really hungry that nearly made me cry, so one of my kids asked all of the others to help get enough money to buy me dinner. So everyone gave some change and in the end there was enough :D That really made my day ^^ <3 my kids.

When we got back from 7eleven, where me and the guy who’d started collecting the money for my dinner (Raven) had gotten my food, another guy who’s also a student mentor along with me made EVERYONE in there sing for me :D That was our group of kids along with ten other groups and ~60 student mentors.

After dinner I said I was going to crash Linda’s party cos she’d hi-jacked my birthday. I ended up dragging Raven along too. Turns our him and Daisy’s boyfriend are really good friends.

The pre-party, as it turned out to be, was at Photo Guy’s place and a bunch of people I know were there.  Poi Girl (who will be Wifey from now on) and Nellie were among the ones there that have aliases here. When we got to the club Pixie was there and a bit later a guy I started talking to last weekend who seems pretty cool also turned up. He’ll be called Paul from now on. Pink and Kleptomaniac also turned up.

Daisy’s boyfriend is really cool by the way. I talked to him some yesterday and I’m really happy for Daisy. I don’t think she’s ever had a boyfriend who was actually good for her before.

That night consisted of a lot of drinking and dancing and making out for me. Everyone bought me drinks cos it was my birthday and I made out with a lot of my friends. The only person I made out with whom I really shouldn’t have made out with was Raven. I’m his student mentor >< We are kinda friends though and he’s really good friends with Daisy’s boyfriend and he’s actually almost a year older than me so I think it’s ok anyway ^^ And dancing really makes me feel good :D There is this feeling that I pretty much only get when I’m on the dancefloor :D

I ended up staying the night at Raven’s place cos he lived really close to the club. We didn’t have sex though so I’ve still never had sex on my birthday :D

Wiiieee

I was out partying with Batman, Black Lotus and a bunch of their friends tonight. We went to this newly opened club and I MADE OUT WITH A GIRL! :D She was really cute and she was bisexual ^^

Might write longer post tomorrow

Nice Girl

About a week and a half ago I started talking to this guy online, Teddy, and a few days later he tagged along to this open house thingy at the dance place where I’ll be taking lessons. He thought about starting too, but he’s not sure he’s got the economy for it.

On Saturday I was texting a bit with him and after not having heard anything from him I get a text:
“Less talking more sex, we’re coming and picking you up haha haha teddy”
“Come and pick me up? For real?”
“Haha IF YOU WANT”
“Well, depends what’s happening :P But it’s not like I have any better plans xD”

So him and his friend ended up coming and picking me up at home. Teddy had worked in the area where I live before so with he could find his way around. His friend was driving the car and we went to the city where I went to High School (they both lived there). Usually it takes about 40 minutes to go that distance by car. It took us about twenty I think, maybe half an hour. Teddy’s friend drove FAST.

After a quick stop by Teddy’s friend’s place to pick up some liquor we went to Teddy’s place. When we got there the three of us were sober. Not so much after a while. Teddy didn’t drink very often cos he’s on probation for crashing his sisters car while very drunk and high as well, so now he gets drunk almost as easily as I do.

After a while another of their friends showed up. He had some weed with him, and they were all shocked that I’d never tried smoking. Teddy said I wouldn’t be trying it that night either.
“I don’t want to,” I said and they all agreed that it was a good thing.

They told me about a lot of the crazy shit they’ve been doing and The Driver said he was kinda shocked that he’d never been tried or convicted for anything. No one was surprised that I had never been convicted for anything.

After a couple of hours The Driver and the third guy left. I asked Teddy if he thought they’d take the car, hoping they’d leave it there and walk. Teddy said that he didn’t think they’d be driving only to be cut of by the sound of a car taking off. Idiots…

About an hour after his friends had left Teddy and me alone we were both cursing the lack of condoms. I had a lot of fun without condoms and so did Teddy, but I’d've preferred if we’d had some condoms too… Apparently Teddy hadn’t gotten laid in a year and was crazy horny. A couple of times he left me to just do something else to not get too frustrated. My ego kinda liked how horny he got xD

The morning after The Driver came over cos they’d accidentally taken Teddy’s keys with them the night before. Teddy said that I probably was “the nicest chick he’d ever met”.
“She doesn’t do drugs, doesn’t smoke, barely drinks and doesn’t even drink coffee!”

Not Hungover!!

I’m not hungover!! :D And with the amount of alcohol I had last night that’s surprising to say the least :P

It was Pinky’s birthday and Kleptomaniac ordered shots. Daisy and Poi Girl where there too ^^

And I was smoking hot yesterday… and sent a bunch of drunken text to Emo Boy letting him know that :$

Jump, jump (Part II)

This is part two. Part one can be found here.

For the next couple of hours I alternated between talking to people I know, dancing, dancing some more and talking to people I didn’t know. Lot’s of fun ^^ Even though Pat and Ryan tried to get me drunk. I made Pat promise me that if I got too drunk to get home on my own he’d make sure I got home ok.

After a while Lily and her brother had to leave cos the brother’s seven months pregnant girlfriend was getting tired. Pat and Ryan left shortly after that. When they’d left I went over to where Photo Guy, Poi Girl and a few others where sitting. Poi Girl wasn’t feeling very well due to too much alcohol so she was mostly moaning about that and me and Photo Guy ended up talking about taking pictures and stuff like that. He is pretty good with a camera and I showed him some of the pics I’ve taken that were online. He also checked when the bus home left. Cell phones with internet are pretty handy :)

I texted Pat and asked btw how was I supposed to get homw now if I got too drunk? and after a couple of texts we started talking about how many people we’d slept with and stuff xD Oh, and apparantly I would’ve been able to make out with him if I’d tried when he was still single (he’d met a girl the day before).

Turned out I didn’t need Pat to get me home ok, cos Photo Guy’s friend with a car said he’d give me a ride ^^ By now it was freezing outside so me and another girl went back to the dance floor to get warmed up. We stayed there for over and hour and it was GREAT! Just dancing, moving to the music, surrounded by people doing the same. AWESOME! :D I also noticed a couple of people watching me, and not in the what-the-fuck-is-wrong-with-her-way, and some people I’ve never met before told me I was a good dancer. Ego boost :D

The friend of Photo Guy turned up after a while though, and I had to leave the dance floor. I was still all giddy and hyper so I kinda jumped all the way to the car. I got home shortly before six.

I had a great time :D :D

Jump, jump (Part I)

Yesterday I was kinda bored.. I wanted to do something and not just sit at home. Thanks to facebook I ended up going to some kinda outdoors rave party. A guy I’m facebook friends with but don’t know very well, Photo Guy, said he was going to [Name of the event] and gave me a bus stop and told me to follow the music when I got there or give him a call. So I went there, not exactly sure what I was headed to, but figured it out when a lot of ravers showed up on the bus xD

Once there I met a couple of people I know. The first person I recognised was Ryan. It was hard seeing who was who in the dark, so at first I didn’t recognise the guy Ryan was with. It was the guy who was “offended” when I didn’t ask him for a drink in this post. He’ll be called Pat in this blog now.

When I’d gotten past the “bouncers” (they stood on the road leading up the area of the woods where they’d set up a “dance floor”) I manged to bump into another girl I sometimes party with. She’s pretty good friends with Daisy and they are pretty similar. The biggest difference to an outside viewer would be that this girl knows how to poi. So Poi Girl it is from now on :)

I followed Poi Girl to where the guy who had invited me was and we talked for a bit and I was offered something to drink before I ventured off to the dance floor. I love just moving to the music, and can stay on a dance floor for a very long time ^^ On the dance flow I saw a very familiar looking girl with dreads. It was (ex)boyfriend’s cousin (Lily from now on). She told me that she and the piercer dude had separated. She also said that he’d probably still pierce me for free though xD

To be continued.

Night

I love being up at night. Sometimes I like partying all night with fun people, sometimes I just want to watch some TV-series from episode one to the season finale. Sometimes I’m up all night finishing an essay due in the next day. Even that can be fun with the right people online on msn.

I can count the times I’ve been up early enough to see the sunrise on my fingers. Most of those times was in the winter when the sun rises around 8-9AM. I’ve long ago lost count of the times I was up late enough to see the sun rise. Even in winter time.

I’ve never really been scared of the dark.

I love walking around in the city at night. Alone or with the right company doesn’t matter. I feel free walking around at night. Just as I never really was scared of the dark I’ve never really been scared of the stereotypical rapist jumping out from behind a dark corner to abduct me. It just didn’t occur to me that I should be.

I love the night.

Talking

Last night I met Emo Boy* again. I met him while working (kinda) on Wednesday night and we’ve been texting bit since then. I met him and a couple of his friends at this bar on Sutreplan.** After we’d been there for a while we went to this other club where we lost his friends so we more or less walked around Stockholm and just talked. It was kinda nice :)

We are similar in some areas and total opposites in others. He talked about a lot of stuff.. Everything from past relationships to school to future plans to sexual orientations. (I try to be as out as I can) He’s straight though :P In the end he followed me home and it turns out that I live in the same house as his grandmother used to live in ’till she got to old for the staircase (!!!!) I had a lot of fun with that. My roomie knows his grandmother and says she’s a nice lady ^^

I told Emo Boy that I’d been raped and he reacted in exactly the right way. That was really nice :) I’m too used to people either acting like “just get over it already” or like what happened has ruined me for life. He told me about a friend of his who’d taked her rapist to court and won.

This is going in the “Friends”-category cos I think I’ve made a new friend :)

*If he ever reads this he’ll hate me for his alias here xD
**A part of Stockholm where there are very many bars and clubs.