Shoping with the ex

I was supposed to help ex-boyfriend with his Halloween-outfit today, we ended up fixing both his and mine ^^ He’ll be an emo xD I think that’s so funny! I helped him find a My Chemical Romance band t-shirt, fake piercings so he can get a snakebite and some other stuff xD I think he’ll be really cute as an emo ^^

I’m gonna be a fairy/pixie/something. I’ve got a cute dress, wings and glittery hairspray ^^ I’m gonna have the same shoes I had when I graduated and some other stuff like flowers in my hair or something ^^ I’m actually getting exited ^^ Frog said it didn’t matter what I wore as long as it was short xD I don’t think he’s ever seen me in a skirt before. I think I might be falling a bit for that guy :$

All in all I had a great time with ex-boyfriend^^ I think this friend thing might actually work out :D That would be awesome! You can’t be together with someone for two and a half years and not want to stay in touch. I still love that guy a lot even if I don’t want to get back together with him…

Fuck Her

I never really liked the girl my ex was dating from what I could see. She seemed like a total bitch. At first I thought it was mostly in my head cos she was dating my ex… Then I saw some comments she made on a friend of mines blog… Something about how rape victims just need to get over it and get on with their lives. When called out on it she said that she was a victim herself but had gotten on with her life. From there on I thought that she must be nice in person cos why would he date her if she was a total bitch?

Last night she pretty much dumped him over MSN. She said that he was mean and cold and boring and not spontaneous  some other stuff… I saw his facebook status. She had commented on it saying something like “you know you’re not spontaneous and you never joke or show feelings.. what are you whining about?”

Daisy had also commented something about how she didn’t agree and thought he was a funny and stuff. Then this girl he’d been dating commented again saying “no, he is very cold and boring!” When Daisy asked why she was saying that this girl left  comment saying that he was never showing his feelings, and never joked and how he was just spinning things to make her look bad.

Yeah, I don’t feel like a jealous ex for being pissed at her anymore.

Boom!

Yesterday I made fire crackers with Cute Geek. It was AWESOME!!! :D I love fire and explosions ^^

Choices

I really like Cute Geek. A lot even… I could really fall hard for that guy. The thing is, the better I get to know Frog the more I like him. And I can see both of them fitting into my life too. When I’m with Cute Geek I can see us ending up together. When I hand out with Frog I feel the same way about him too! And when I’m alone I’m fine being all flirty and stuff…

What’s a girl to do?

Crazy Weekend!

Thursday: I was working at a dinner party with 69 guests. Setting up tables, serving food (thankfully I didn’t have to help out with the dishes <3) After the dinner it was a regular pub/party/not sure what to call it. I was in the bar or running around picking up empty bottles and glasses. Lot’s of running around and getting hit on by waay too drunk customers. Actually had a lot of fun ^^ But was soo tired when I got home. School had started at 9AM, I started working ~5PM and got home at 4AM.

Friday: Clubbing with Ninja and Cute Geek. We also picked up a day after pill for Ninja. On the way there we decided to get married on facebook :D I love that girl! I’m missing her so much already…. So anyway, since I was married Cute Geek had to ask permission to kiss me xD Ninja said it was fine as long as I kissed her too every time I kissed him. So I pretty much got a lot of kisses that night ^^ Oh, and Cute Geek can DANCE! How did I miss that? I have been out with him before… I think I’m falling for him actually :$ Not sure if that’s a good idea or not.

Saturday: I was the guest at a dinner party thingy similar to the one where I’d worked on Thursday. I got too drunk during the dinner but sobered up a bit after ^^ Met a bunch of new people and had a lot of fun ^^ I also made out with one of the guys working xD I started talking to him at some point and we danced a bit on his “break” (he just took one xD).

He saw my ring* and asked if I was engaged. I told him that I’m not engaged but if an annoying guy hits on me I might pretend I am. He took that to mean that I didn’t think he was annoying. Then his boss came and told him to get back to work. Right before he left he kissed me. Later that night he pretty much pulled me away from my friends and pushed me up against a door and kissed me.

“Hey, you’re pretty drunk.. Maybe I shouldn’t do this,” he said after a minute or so. He was sober and I was definitely not sober.
“I’m not too drunk to know what I’m doing,” I said and kissed him. He got my number and we’re planning on meeting up sometime next week ^^ If I see him again he’ll get a name here, and I have the perfect one :D

*I have a very pretty white gold and diamond ring that looks a bit like an engagement ring.

Best Text Ever

From Ninja today:

Hey baby. Thank you for being you. For having ben there through my ups and downs. Listening to me go on and on about everything under the sun. Thank you for giving me butterflies, for your sweet lemon dextro energy kisses. Your love, laughter and stunning personality. Having you as a best friend is something to cherish and take pride off. Thanks you thank you for letting me be such a big part of your life. I leave my heart with you here in sweden…Well whats left of it anyways. I love you my beautiful. Missing you already. Dont you ever dare to change, you are perfect in every way, baby.

I’m gonna miss her like crazy!!! Fuck I love that girl!

Going Out

Me and Ninja are going out tonight :D Pixie might tag along too ^^ I’m so looking forward to it :D

My List

I have list of all the people I’ve slept with. I can still remember them all but it gets easier with the list. The length of that list depends on how I count. If I only count intercourse it’s 8, if I even count oral it’s 12, if I count the girl (there were only fingers involved) and whatever happened at Smile’s* then it’s 14. If I only count the people who made me come it’s 6.

Out of all the 14 I regret one. Maybe two… I’m wondering if it really was such a good idea to sleep with Paul >< If I got the chance to sleep with anyone on my list again I’d got for maybe 4 or5 of them… Possibly 6. Out of those 14, 12 of them have nick names here. The average age of those 14 is just a bit over a year older than me. Out of those 14 I was in love with one and crushing on 6 or 7. Out of those 14 I was together with one.

*I don’t know how to describe it really. Torture is one word, but it was really great too and only involved two fingers and a lot of mind games.

Good Times

A childhood friend I haven’t seen in like five years is in Sweden visiting me :D I was a bit scared that we wouldn’t get along, but just as we did five years ago we get along great! She’s awesome! We’re a lot alike (not looks wise, but personality like)

She’ll be there to hold me hand when I get my tattoo done and if we can afford it we’re getting matching piercings ^^

The best part is that we can talk about pretty much everything :D

I love that girl :D

Not a Good Idea Right Now

Raven is smart, good looking, funny, and when I told him about a guy who tried to kiss me and said something about it not being that bad… Can you guess what he said?

Invading personal space is invading personal space!

I haven’t heard him say one victim blaming thing when it comes to stuff like rape and sexual assault. The way he talks about sex and sexuality in general makes me wanna jump him. No victim blaming, no power tripping, no “getting some” when he talks about having sex with someone. According to him sex is a great when shared.

Oh, and to top it of he’s half icelandic! That’s fucken awesome!

This is so a guy I could fall seriously in love with.

Birthday Celebraition

It was my 21st last Friday and this weekend I was at my mum’s place for presents and cake :D I got some lovely presens:

I’ve wanted pink skullcandy headphones for a while now :D Wiiee :D And I got one of these:

Not me in the pic btw, I found it on google. I also got one of those in blue and white :D I think I might be in a pink period right now xD Oh, and I got a gift card for Lush from my brother. I also got to hang out with Nadia :D I hadn’t met her in aaageees! So it wa great seeing her again :D Her kids are really cute. Her oldest (who just turned five) said that if you got nothing nice to say you shouldn’t say anything. <3 her kids!

BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!!

Yesterday was my 21st birthday and I had a BLAST! :D

The day started with a school lesson. Black Lotus showed up and I got a hug :D

After lunch a day full of activities/competitions between groups for the new students started. We started of meeting up our group in a classroom and another guy who’s also a student mentor had them all sing happy birthday for me :D During the day I got a bunch of birthday wishes and “my kids” did really well in the competitions too ^^

My grandparents managed to time in the five minutes that I wasn’t busy to call and wish me a happy birthday too and I got a bunch of texts :D

When we went to have dinner there’d been a mix up in the kitchen so there was no food for me. Due to lack of sleep and being really hungry that nearly made me cry, so one of my kids asked all of the others to help get enough money to buy me dinner. So everyone gave some change and in the end there was enough :D That really made my day ^^ <3 my kids.

When we got back from 7eleven, where me and the guy who’d started collecting the money for my dinner (Raven) had gotten my food, another guy who’s also a student mentor along with me made EVERYONE in there sing for me :D That was our group of kids along with ten other groups and ~60 student mentors.

After dinner I said I was going to crash Linda’s party cos she’d hi-jacked my birthday. I ended up dragging Raven along too. Turns our him and Daisy’s boyfriend are really good friends.

The pre-party, as it turned out to be, was at Photo Guy’s place and a bunch of people I know were there.  Poi Girl (who will be Wifey from now on) and Nellie were among the ones there that have aliases here. When we got to the club Pixie was there and a bit later a guy I started talking to last weekend who seems pretty cool also turned up. He’ll be called Paul from now on. Pink and Kleptomaniac also turned up.

Daisy’s boyfriend is really cool by the way. I talked to him some yesterday and I’m really happy for Daisy. I don’t think she’s ever had a boyfriend who was actually good for her before.

That night consisted of a lot of drinking and dancing and making out for me. Everyone bought me drinks cos it was my birthday and I made out with a lot of my friends. The only person I made out with whom I really shouldn’t have made out with was Raven. I’m his student mentor >< We are kinda friends though and he’s really good friends with Daisy’s boyfriend and he’s actually almost a year older than me so I think it’s ok anyway ^^ And dancing really makes me feel good :D There is this feeling that I pretty much only get when I’m on the dancefloor :D

I ended up staying the night at Raven’s place cos he lived really close to the club. We didn’t have sex though so I’ve still never had sex on my birthday :D

I’m “Married” xD

Yesterday I was talking to Lex on MSN. I haven’t talked to him in ages… I’ve kinda avoided him cos every time I talk to him the first thing he does is ask if I’m single. Yesterday the conversation went something like this:
Lex: It was ages since we last met up…
Me: Yeah, I know.. I’ll be kinda busy for the next week or so though
Lex: Doing what?
Me: Well, I have an exam on Thursday and I’ll be spending the weekend in [town where my grandparents live] then I have a meeting/party with the student mentor group on Monday and on Tuesday classes start.
Lex: You spend a lot of time in [town where my grandparents live], why?
Me: My grandparents live there xD
Lex: So no boy?
Me: I’d never have the energy for a LDR xD
Lex: So you’re still single?
Me: Yeah
Lex is inviting you to start sending webcam. Do you want to Accept (Alt+C) or Decline (Alt+D) the invitation?

So I got kinda fed up and posted a status message to facebook complaining about people who asked if I was single the first thing they did and then asked if I had a web camera. Bite Me commented:  “Singel? Cam? xD” So then we started talking a lot on MSN :D

After Bite Me’s comment I changed my relationship status to “Married”.
Daisy commented: WHO!?
Me: I’m not married xD
Daisy :|

I was on MSN talking to Poi Girl so I told her about the comments me and Daisy left on the changed relationship status.
Me: Maybe I should marry someone then xD
Poi Girl: Marry me?
Me: Sure!
Poi Girl: Awwwe
Me: (K)
Poi Girl: (L)

So now me and Poi Girl are married on facebook xD I told you I was gonna marry a girl if I ever got married!

Sirqus Alfon again and going for a beer

Me and Poi Girl went to see Sirqus Alfon again yesteday. We met up my mum, aunt and a friend of my aunts there. I had a lot of fun :D Sirqus Alfon are really crazy! Their “lead singer” has dreads coupled with shaving part of the head. They do “covers” of Spice Girls, Enigma, No Dobt, that Mr. Vain song I can never remember anything more about, Missy Elliot, and a whole bunch of other people/songs. How can you not love a group like that?

After the show me and Poi Girl met up with Daisy and her new boyfriend and some of his friends for a beer or two. It was kinda nice :) Her boyfriend seems nice^^ Most of the people she’s dated has turned out to be idiots.. So I’m really happy that she’s met a nice guy at last^^ No checking through her msn-conversations, no telling her what she can and can’t wear, no trying to turn her friends against her, no freaking out cos a male friend buys her a drink. And he’s good looking too^^

Daisy told us that they still haven’t had sex cos he gets too nervous. They both really want to, but he gets all nervous and stuff so he can’t get it up. Daisy said that he more than makes up for it though, so she doesn’t mind. Aparantly he has “magic fingers” xD

Most of the time Poi Girl and Daisy were making plans about upcoming parties and stuff and gossiping about mutual friends. Poi Girl dated some guy who turned out to be an asshole after a pregnancy scare and Daisy was semi-interested in another guy who turned out to be really arrogant and stuff. And some guy who Poi Girl dated a while was sad that Daisy had gotten a boyfriend cos now him and Daisy couldn’t have kids. This guy is a creep and Daisy has as big chance of getting pregnant without condoms as with them. She said she wouldn’t have his baby for a million.

Around midnight we split up, everyone going home.

When I got the station where the subway branches out I didn’t want to wait for my train (22min) so I started walking (would take me less than 20 minutes to get home that way). Some guy asked me when the train went but in the end started pestering me to come home with him to watch a movie. I’m not interested in random desperate guys!

Jump, jump (Part II)

This is part two. Part one can be found here.

For the next couple of hours I alternated between talking to people I know, dancing, dancing some more and talking to people I didn’t know. Lot’s of fun ^^ Even though Pat and Ryan tried to get me drunk. I made Pat promise me that if I got too drunk to get home on my own he’d make sure I got home ok.

After a while Lily and her brother had to leave cos the brother’s seven months pregnant girlfriend was getting tired. Pat and Ryan left shortly after that. When they’d left I went over to where Photo Guy, Poi Girl and a few others where sitting. Poi Girl wasn’t feeling very well due to too much alcohol so she was mostly moaning about that and me and Photo Guy ended up talking about taking pictures and stuff like that. He is pretty good with a camera and I showed him some of the pics I’ve taken that were online. He also checked when the bus home left. Cell phones with internet are pretty handy :)

I texted Pat and asked btw how was I supposed to get homw now if I got too drunk? and after a couple of texts we started talking about how many people we’d slept with and stuff xD Oh, and apparantly I would’ve been able to make out with him if I’d tried when he was still single (he’d met a girl the day before).

Turned out I didn’t need Pat to get me home ok, cos Photo Guy’s friend with a car said he’d give me a ride ^^ By now it was freezing outside so me and another girl went back to the dance floor to get warmed up. We stayed there for over and hour and it was GREAT! Just dancing, moving to the music, surrounded by people doing the same. AWESOME! :D I also noticed a couple of people watching me, and not in the what-the-fuck-is-wrong-with-her-way, and some people I’ve never met before told me I was a good dancer. Ego boost :D

The friend of Photo Guy turned up after a while though, and I had to leave the dance floor. I was still all giddy and hyper so I kinda jumped all the way to the car. I got home shortly before six.

I had a great time :D :D