Celibacy

I was talking to Frog yesterday… Both of us have to be celibate for the ten days we are on antibiotics. It’s actually illegal for me to do anything with anyone that could risk spreading the infection xD So I said that I was thinking about celibacy for a longer time than that.. Cos I don’t wanna get another infection. Next time it could be something much worse than chlamydia.

“As long as you make an exception for me,” Frog said.
“Well, that depends on you,” I said. If I didn’t sleep with anyone but him and he continued sleeping around I wouldn’t lower the risk.
“You know what that would mean?” Frog asked me.
“Monogamy” I said.
“AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaa” we both went.
“That’s so not baby steps,” Frog said.

Then I started thinking about requiring all potential partners to test negative first. Frog figured out that would mean two weeks of celibacy after every time he slept with someone else than me, so he said if that was the case he could just be monogamous anyway… xD

Anyway, for now we have a bet. The first person who has any kind of  sex (even oral, manual and solo) loses. The loser has to ask permission from the other person if they wanna do anything sexual with anyone (including making out). If we lose by sleeping with each other both have to ask permission xD I’m so no losing xD Frog said he thought about losing on purpose just to see how mean I would be :P

Fuck!

This guy showed up under “suggestions” on facebook. Apparently we have 26 friends in common on facebook. ><

Boom!

Yesterday I made fire crackers with Cute Geek. It was AWESOME!!! :D I love fire and explosions ^^

Chance Meeting

Today I woke up at 4-5AM with a UTI >< About eleven I had a doctors appointment to get antibiotics prescribed. Since the closest pharmacy to me was closed I had to go to the next closest. About a block from that pharmacy is the only place in Stockholm where I know they sell Cherry Cola. On my way to the shop I bumped into Raven.

We talked for a while about school stuff and then he asked me where’d I’d been hiding.
“I used to bump into you at school like every day and now I hardly see you…”

I ended up skipping school and spend a couple of hours studying at his place and discussion sexual assault laws in Sweden and Israel. I had a lot of fun actually :D I like his opinions when it comes to sex crimes :)

Some Spam is Funny

This is what I found in my inbox a few days ago:

Dear Friend,

I hope that this e-mail reached you in the right frame of Mind.

I am Mrs Kate Foster , I am suffering from cancerous ailment,When my late
husband was alive he deposited the sum of 4.8 Million Great Britain Pounds
Sterling which were derived from his vast estates and investment in
capital market with his bank here in UK. Presently, this money is still
with the Bank. Recently, my Doctor told me that I have limited days to
live due to the cancerous problems I am suffering from. Though what
bothers me most is the stroke that I have in addition to the cancer. With
this hard reality that has befallen my family, and me I have decided to
donate this fund to you and want you to use this gift which comes from my
husbands effort to fund the upkeep of widows, widowers, orphans,
destitute, the down-trodden, physically challenged children, barren women
and persons who prove to be genuinely handicapped financially.

Please contact me on the email below for further clarifications:

[e-mail adress]

Lady Kate Foster (ESQ.)
Arthur Cox Solicitors.

Crushes of my Own

It’s not only my ex who’s crushing on someone. I’m crushing on two guys :O And I love the feeling :) Today me and Raven timed it so we were on the same train to uni. It was kinda nice with some company on the train ^^ Specially cos I could use his shoulder as a cushion :D (I was soooo tired this morning)

After school I met up with Paul. I was talking to him on msn and I asked how he was and he said he felt kinda down. So I asked if he wanted some company. I ended up spending five hours at his apartment doing pretty much nothing. It was nice though^^ And I got HUGS :D (and kisses too ^^) ((Oh, and food :D))

All in all I had a pretty good day :) (despite having to get up at 6AM!)

I’m “Married” xD

Yesterday I was talking to Lex on MSN. I haven’t talked to him in ages… I’ve kinda avoided him cos every time I talk to him the first thing he does is ask if I’m single. Yesterday the conversation went something like this:
Lex: It was ages since we last met up…
Me: Yeah, I know.. I’ll be kinda busy for the next week or so though
Lex: Doing what?
Me: Well, I have an exam on Thursday and I’ll be spending the weekend in [town where my grandparents live] then I have a meeting/party with the student mentor group on Monday and on Tuesday classes start.
Lex: You spend a lot of time in [town where my grandparents live], why?
Me: My grandparents live there xD
Lex: So no boy?
Me: I’d never have the energy for a LDR xD
Lex: So you’re still single?
Me: Yeah
Lex is inviting you to start sending webcam. Do you want to Accept (Alt+C) or Decline (Alt+D) the invitation?

So I got kinda fed up and posted a status message to facebook complaining about people who asked if I was single the first thing they did and then asked if I had a web camera. Bite Me commented:  “Singel? Cam? xD” So then we started talking a lot on MSN :D

After Bite Me’s comment I changed my relationship status to “Married”.
Daisy commented: WHO!?
Me: I’m not married xD
Daisy :|

I was on MSN talking to Poi Girl so I told her about the comments me and Daisy left on the changed relationship status.
Me: Maybe I should marry someone then xD
Poi Girl: Marry me?
Me: Sure!
Poi Girl: Awwwe
Me: (K)
Poi Girl: (L)

So now me and Poi Girl are married on facebook xD I told you I was gonna marry a girl if I ever got married!

Sirqus Alfon again and going for a beer

Me and Poi Girl went to see Sirqus Alfon again yesteday. We met up my mum, aunt and a friend of my aunts there. I had a lot of fun :D Sirqus Alfon are really crazy! Their “lead singer” has dreads coupled with shaving part of the head. They do “covers” of Spice Girls, Enigma, No Dobt, that Mr. Vain song I can never remember anything more about, Missy Elliot, and a whole bunch of other people/songs. How can you not love a group like that?

After the show me and Poi Girl met up with Daisy and her new boyfriend and some of his friends for a beer or two. It was kinda nice :) Her boyfriend seems nice^^ Most of the people she’s dated has turned out to be idiots.. So I’m really happy that she’s met a nice guy at last^^ No checking through her msn-conversations, no telling her what she can and can’t wear, no trying to turn her friends against her, no freaking out cos a male friend buys her a drink. And he’s good looking too^^

Daisy told us that they still haven’t had sex cos he gets too nervous. They both really want to, but he gets all nervous and stuff so he can’t get it up. Daisy said that he more than makes up for it though, so she doesn’t mind. Aparantly he has “magic fingers” xD

Most of the time Poi Girl and Daisy were making plans about upcoming parties and stuff and gossiping about mutual friends. Poi Girl dated some guy who turned out to be an asshole after a pregnancy scare and Daisy was semi-interested in another guy who turned out to be really arrogant and stuff. And some guy who Poi Girl dated a while was sad that Daisy had gotten a boyfriend cos now him and Daisy couldn’t have kids. This guy is a creep and Daisy has as big chance of getting pregnant without condoms as with them. She said she wouldn’t have his baby for a million.

Around midnight we split up, everyone going home.

When I got the station where the subway branches out I didn’t want to wait for my train (22min) so I started walking (would take me less than 20 minutes to get home that way). Some guy asked me when the train went but in the end started pestering me to come home with him to watch a movie. I’m not interested in random desperate guys!

Sirqus Alfon

I saw Sirqus Alfonday :D And I”m seeing them tomorrow too :D I also bumped into Poi Girl ^^ She was there to take pictures :)

Over

I was reading some old post from my archive when this post showed up. This year the anniversary didn’t bother me at all! I didn’t even think about it… That stuff doesn’t affect me as much as is used to, and I think that’s really great.

It still affects me, but not like it used to do. For a while it felt like the rape defined me. I was That Girl. The one who was raped. Now I have so many other things to define me. Things that are my own choice and not something someone else did to me. Things that matter for who I am as a person.

Not Just Sex

None of my relationships are based solely on sex. The people I sleep with are always more than just a one night stand. Most of them are friends… Or become friends with time. Tony did start as a one night stand and now he’s one of my best friends. (ex)boyfriend started as some kinda one night stand too, and then I fell in love. Bubblegum Boy was my classmate for three years before we had sex. And last night Emo Boy made absolutely sure it’s not only sex for him.

That’s the way I like it. For me to sleep with someone I need to trust them. I need to know that they would stop in a split second if I needed it. For me it seems to be easier to trust guys I’ve slept with… Cos if they stick around I know they weren’t just pretending to me my friend to get laid.

Far Away

I met up with Smile yesterday. I was really miserable and refused to take off my sunglasses cos I was hungover (might get a post up about my Friday). My head was pounding and I felt like a vampire when it came to sunlight. Smile had a lot of fun teasing me about it but bought me an ice cream so I was a bit happier when we got to his car.

It took about an hour to drive to his place, and then I was already about half an hour away from my place. He lives faaar away! When we got there I got a tour of his town, among other things he showed me his old high school, the harbour and the many huuge supermarkets xD When we got to his place he said what I needed was a drink. For my hangover that is… He was also amused by how easily I get drunk/hungover. I’d had like one drink the nigh before.

Smile’s house was nice. Pretty small, and just behind his parents house. He’s moving to Stockholm in the fall he told me, he’s gonna study and don’t want to spend three hours commuting each day.

We watched some TV and talked first. About India, Greece, mutual friends, his ex, my ex, relationships in general, sex, some of my self esteem issues and a bunch of other stuff. Then we watched some movies. He also had a lot of  fun holding me down and tickling me. Sadist! (But then I do have some masochistic tendencies too… xD)

Around ten I figured I should check when the bus home left, but then I decided to finish the second (thrd?) movie we were wathing first. In the end we lost track of time and I missed the last bus. By like five minutes. Smile offered to try and catch up with the bus by car, but said that could also stay the night if I wanted to. I just had to decide like right now. I ended up staying the night.

I had a lot of fun ^^

Top of the World

I love those days when you wake up and just feel great. I love it when I wake up and just feel like this is going to be a good day. I love it when I get up in the morning and the person staring back at me in the mirror is drop dead gorgeous. I love the days when it feels like nothing can go wrong, the days when my self esteem is pretty much of the chart.

When those days coincide with a job interview, well… It took the guy less than ten minutes to offer me a job.

Cuddling and Movies

Yesterday Smile texted me. He had a couple of hours to kill and wanted some company. Being the nice person I am, I got out of bed and got on the train to meet him. I haven’t seen him in like forever! We wandered around a bit looking for a place that sold decent coffee, ended up getting too cold to stay outside so we went back to my place, watched Sweney Todd and cuddled :) Nice way to start the day actually^^

When he left I didn’t do much.. Texted a bit with Emo Boy. We had made plans for Friday, but we didn’t go through with them for various reasons so he asked if I wanted to meet up later maybe. Sure, I said and asked him when. He wanted to watch the football* game but maybe after?

After the game (which Sweden lost) we were both too tired to really do anything special, so it ended up with him coming to my place to watch a movie and some cuddling ^^ Nice way to end the day :)

*Soccer

Night

I love being up at night. Sometimes I like partying all night with fun people, sometimes I just want to watch some TV-series from episode one to the season finale. Sometimes I’m up all night finishing an essay due in the next day. Even that can be fun with the right people online on msn.

I can count the times I’ve been up early enough to see the sunrise on my fingers. Most of those times was in the winter when the sun rises around 8-9AM. I’ve long ago lost count of the times I was up late enough to see the sun rise. Even in winter time.

I’ve never really been scared of the dark.

I love walking around in the city at night. Alone or with the right company doesn’t matter. I feel free walking around at night. Just as I never really was scared of the dark I’ve never really been scared of the stereotypical rapist jumping out from behind a dark corner to abduct me. It just didn’t occur to me that I should be.

I love the night.