Studying

I’m seeing Green Fairy today… We’re gonna study for the exam together ^^ I love that we are friends :) When it comes to school-stuff we are at about the same level, so when we study together it doesn’t end up with one of us having to teach the other ^^

I Might Win

Frog went to a party on Friday. There were a bunch of girls hitting on him and one of them was wearing a Sexy Nurse outfit. He said that had it not been for the chlamydia he would’ve lost our bet xD Frog is pretty much the only one where I have a chance to win a bet like this one ^^ He said he almost lost on the solo sex part xD

I’m so gonna win this! :D

Photo shoot

From the photo-shoot with Raven ^^ We figured the best way for me to now look like a deer caught in headlights was for my face to not be visible ^^

Halloween the Longer Version

I’d promised Green Fairy that I’d get some pictures of the Halloween outfit for her. She helped me out A LOT. There would be no awesome outfit without her :D So I texted Raven, who works as a photographer and asked him if he could help me out. He said he’d be happy to help me out ^^

At first I pretty much just looked like a deer caught in headlights on all the pics. Then Raven put on som Günther music and acted really silly so I just started laughing a lot. We got some pretty good pictures :)

At the party later that night I had a lot of fun ’till Frog got me bit too drunk. I left a bit early and ended up watching a movie and discussion religion and politics with Raven ^^

So all in all I had a great night :D

Shoping with the ex

I was supposed to help ex-boyfriend with his Halloween-outfit today, we ended up fixing both his and mine ^^ He’ll be an emo xD I think that’s so funny! I helped him find a My Chemical Romance band t-shirt, fake piercings so he can get a snakebite and some other stuff xD I think he’ll be really cute as an emo ^^

I’m gonna be a fairy/pixie/something. I’ve got a cute dress, wings and glittery hairspray ^^ I’m gonna have the same shoes I had when I graduated and some other stuff like flowers in my hair or something ^^ I’m actually getting exited ^^ Frog said it didn’t matter what I wore as long as it was short xD I don’t think he’s ever seen me in a skirt before. I think I might be falling a bit for that guy :$

All in all I had a great time with ex-boyfriend^^ I think this friend thing might actually work out :D That would be awesome! You can’t be together with someone for two and a half years and not want to stay in touch. I still love that guy a lot even if I don’t want to get back together with him…

Fuck Her

I never really liked the girl my ex was dating from what I could see. She seemed like a total bitch. At first I thought it was mostly in my head cos she was dating my ex… Then I saw some comments she made on a friend of mines blog… Something about how rape victims just need to get over it and get on with their lives. When called out on it she said that she was a victim herself but had gotten on with her life. From there on I thought that she must be nice in person cos why would he date her if she was a total bitch?

Last night she pretty much dumped him over MSN. She said that he was mean and cold and boring and not spontaneous  some other stuff… I saw his facebook status. She had commented on it saying something like “you know you’re not spontaneous and you never joke or show feelings.. what are you whining about?”

Daisy had also commented something about how she didn’t agree and thought he was a funny and stuff. Then this girl he’d been dating commented again saying “no, he is very cold and boring!” When Daisy asked why she was saying that this girl left  comment saying that he was never showing his feelings, and never joked and how he was just spinning things to make her look bad.

Yeah, I don’t feel like a jealous ex for being pissed at her anymore.

Haven’t Lost Yet

Emo Boy spent the night yesterday. When he heard about my deal with Frog he said that he didn’t think I was going to last even a week. If I do last a week he’ll buy me a beer (well, we’ll be even then since I already owe him a beer xD). Then he tried to get me to lose.

I haven’t lost yet ^^

Birthday x2 + some drama

Thursday was both Black Lotus’ and Frog’s birthday. On Friday we threw a surprise party for Black Lotus. On Saturday both of them were going clubbing so I didn’t know whos party to go to. I texted a bit with Cute Geek (who’s really good friends with Black Lotus) and some of the things he said made me kinda pissed off and worried that he was jealous. I don’t do jealousy!

Anyway, since I’d been to Black Lotus’ surprise party I decided to go to Frog’s party. I had a lot of fun there, when I wasn’t thinking about Cute Geek’s maybe-jealousy. After a while we headed out to a club and a while after we got there I spotted Black Lotus and his friends too! Both groups of people ended up at the same place :D

My only worry was that Cute Geek would get hurt or that I wouldn’t know what to do with both guys I’m seeing right now at the same place. Cute Geek wasn’t with Black Lotus though… And they didn’t even know if he was going to show up. So I had a lot of fun dancing and drinking and making out and stuff like that ^^

Then Cute Geek showed up and was super drunk. Drunk enough to be really annoying and kinda clingy. So I kinda avoided him a bit to be honest. Usually I really like that guy, yesterday I was mostly just annoyed.

I went home with Frog, and we were supposed to just sleep but of course we ended up having sex. We pretty much always have sex when we see each other. The only times we haven’t had sex has been when we’ve been in public and once we came close anyway xD

This morning I got a text from Cute Geek saying sorry, and on my way home from Frog we talked on the phone and I told him why I was annoyed. He said that he hadn’t been jealous, but I’m not completely sure I believe him ><

About an hour ago someone rand my door bell and when I opened the door there was a vodka bottle with water and a rose in it. Attached to the rose was a card saying “[Mortality], Sorry”. When I looked out on the street I saw a car I recognised as his leaving.

I miss her so much…

I miss Ninja sooo much >< I just wanna hop on a plane to Australia !

Boom!

Yesterday I made fire crackers with Cute Geek. It was AWESOME!!! :D I love fire and explosions ^^

Chance Meeting

Today I woke up at 4-5AM with a UTI >< About eleven I had a doctors appointment to get antibiotics prescribed. Since the closest pharmacy to me was closed I had to go to the next closest. About a block from that pharmacy is the only place in Stockholm where I know they sell Cherry Cola. On my way to the shop I bumped into Raven.

We talked for a while about school stuff and then he asked me where’d I’d been hiding.
“I used to bump into you at school like every day and now I hardly see you…”

I ended up skipping school and spend a couple of hours studying at his place and discussion sexual assault laws in Sweden and Israel. I had a lot of fun actually :D I like his opinions when it comes to sex crimes :)

Failure

This is the second time I experience condom failure.  This time the condom slipped out and we were too drunk to notice it at first. Frog tagged along to the pharmacy to get Plan B and he also paid  half :)

I freaked out less than last time, even though I actually had a bigger risk this time. Last time the guy didn’t come and I was just about to get my period. Since my period is irregular I have no idea when I’m ovulating, but it could be like now or in the next week or so…

Anyway, two week from now I’m getting a pregnancy test ^^

Choices

I really like Cute Geek. A lot even… I could really fall hard for that guy. The thing is, the better I get to know Frog the more I like him. And I can see both of them fitting into my life too. When I’m with Cute Geek I can see us ending up together. When I hand out with Frog I feel the same way about him too! And when I’m alone I’m fine being all flirty and stuff…

What’s a girl to do?

Crazy Weekend!

Thursday: I was working at a dinner party with 69 guests. Setting up tables, serving food (thankfully I didn’t have to help out with the dishes <3) After the dinner it was a regular pub/party/not sure what to call it. I was in the bar or running around picking up empty bottles and glasses. Lot’s of running around and getting hit on by waay too drunk customers. Actually had a lot of fun ^^ But was soo tired when I got home. School had started at 9AM, I started working ~5PM and got home at 4AM.

Friday: Clubbing with Ninja and Cute Geek. We also picked up a day after pill for Ninja. On the way there we decided to get married on facebook :D I love that girl! I’m missing her so much already…. So anyway, since I was married Cute Geek had to ask permission to kiss me xD Ninja said it was fine as long as I kissed her too every time I kissed him. So I pretty much got a lot of kisses that night ^^ Oh, and Cute Geek can DANCE! How did I miss that? I have been out with him before… I think I’m falling for him actually :$ Not sure if that’s a good idea or not.

Saturday: I was the guest at a dinner party thingy similar to the one where I’d worked on Thursday. I got too drunk during the dinner but sobered up a bit after ^^ Met a bunch of new people and had a lot of fun ^^ I also made out with one of the guys working xD I started talking to him at some point and we danced a bit on his “break” (he just took one xD).

He saw my ring* and asked if I was engaged. I told him that I’m not engaged but if an annoying guy hits on me I might pretend I am. He took that to mean that I didn’t think he was annoying. Then his boss came and told him to get back to work. Right before he left he kissed me. Later that night he pretty much pulled me away from my friends and pushed me up against a door and kissed me.

“Hey, you’re pretty drunk.. Maybe I shouldn’t do this,” he said after a minute or so. He was sober and I was definitely not sober.
“I’m not too drunk to know what I’m doing,” I said and kissed him. He got my number and we’re planning on meeting up sometime next week ^^ If I see him again he’ll get a name here, and I have the perfect one :D

*I have a very pretty white gold and diamond ring that looks a bit like an engagement ring.

Best Text Ever

From Ninja today:

Hey baby. Thank you for being you. For having ben there through my ups and downs. Listening to me go on and on about everything under the sun. Thank you for giving me butterflies, for your sweet lemon dextro energy kisses. Your love, laughter and stunning personality. Having you as a best friend is something to cherish and take pride off. Thanks you thank you for letting me be such a big part of your life. I leave my heart with you here in sweden…Well whats left of it anyways. I love you my beautiful. Missing you already. Dont you ever dare to change, you are perfect in every way, baby.

I’m gonna miss her like crazy!!! Fuck I love that girl!