Best Text Ever

From Ninja today:

Hey baby. Thank you for being you. For having ben there through my ups and downs. Listening to me go on and on about everything under the sun. Thank you for giving me butterflies, for your sweet lemon dextro energy kisses. Your love, laughter and stunning personality. Having you as a best friend is something to cherish and take pride off. Thanks you thank you for letting me be such a big part of your life. I leave my heart with you here in sweden…Well whats left of it anyways. I love you my beautiful. Missing you already. Dont you ever dare to change, you are perfect in every way, baby.

I’m gonna miss her like crazy!!! Fuck I love that girl!

Too Much at Once

My dad is visiting Denmark. My grandmother (his mother that is, not my mum’s mother) is in the hospital and might be dying. She took the death of her son very hard.  So she gave my dad money for a ticket so he could come visit.

I really hope she’ll be ok ><

Then I got an e-mail from my dad where he apologised for forgetting my birthday. Apparently he’ll come visit Sweden as well when he’s “in the “neighbourhood”. He said he’s gotten me a gift and I’m still not sure I can handle seeing him. I’m still mad, and a head on collision with a truck is not an apology for the way he’s acted. He won’t even admit that he ever did anything wrong!

*panics*

Tattoo

I’m gonna get tattooed the 30th. I’m getting really nervous now >< The tattoo I’m getting is something I’ve been thinking about since I was 14-15, so I don’t think I’ll regret it. I used the birthday money I got from my grandparents to pay for it, so I really hope they’ll never find out xD

All I need now is someone to come hold my hand while I get inked.

Birthday Celebraition

It was my 21st last Friday and this weekend I was at my mum’s place for presents and cake :D I got some lovely presens:

I’ve wanted pink skullcandy headphones for a while now :D Wiiee :D And I got one of these:

Not me in the pic btw, I found it on google. I also got one of those in blue and white :D I think I might be in a pink period right now xD Oh, and I got a gift card for Lush from my brother. I also got to hang out with Nadia :D I hadn’t met her in aaageees! So it wa great seeing her again :D Her kids are really cute. Her oldest (who just turned five) said that if you got nothing nice to say you shouldn’t say anything. <3 her kids!

Staying

Wifey’s mum kicked her out a few months ago and she’s been staying with friends ever since. Now she has two nights with no where to stay so I told her she could stay here.

BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!!

Yesterday was my 21st birthday and I had a BLAST! :D

The day started with a school lesson. Black Lotus showed up and I got a hug :D

After lunch a day full of activities/competitions between groups for the new students started. We started of meeting up our group in a classroom and another guy who’s also a student mentor had them all sing happy birthday for me :D During the day I got a bunch of birthday wishes and “my kids” did really well in the competitions too ^^

My grandparents managed to time in the five minutes that I wasn’t busy to call and wish me a happy birthday too and I got a bunch of texts :D

When we went to have dinner there’d been a mix up in the kitchen so there was no food for me. Due to lack of sleep and being really hungry that nearly made me cry, so one of my kids asked all of the others to help get enough money to buy me dinner. So everyone gave some change and in the end there was enough :D That really made my day ^^ <3 my kids.

When we got back from 7eleven, where me and the guy who’d started collecting the money for my dinner (Raven) had gotten my food, another guy who’s also a student mentor along with me made EVERYONE in there sing for me :D That was our group of kids along with ten other groups and ~60 student mentors.

After dinner I said I was going to crash Linda’s party cos she’d hi-jacked my birthday. I ended up dragging Raven along too. Turns our him and Daisy’s boyfriend are really good friends.

The pre-party, as it turned out to be, was at Photo Guy’s place and a bunch of people I know were there.  Poi Girl (who will be Wifey from now on) and Nellie were among the ones there that have aliases here. When we got to the club Pixie was there and a bit later a guy I started talking to last weekend who seems pretty cool also turned up. He’ll be called Paul from now on. Pink and Kleptomaniac also turned up.

Daisy’s boyfriend is really cool by the way. I talked to him some yesterday and I’m really happy for Daisy. I don’t think she’s ever had a boyfriend who was actually good for her before.

That night consisted of a lot of drinking and dancing and making out for me. Everyone bought me drinks cos it was my birthday and I made out with a lot of my friends. The only person I made out with whom I really shouldn’t have made out with was Raven. I’m his student mentor >< We are kinda friends though and he’s really good friends with Daisy’s boyfriend and he’s actually almost a year older than me so I think it’s ok anyway ^^ And dancing really makes me feel good :D There is this feeling that I pretty much only get when I’m on the dancefloor :D

I ended up staying the night at Raven’s place cos he lived really close to the club. We didn’t have sex though so I’ve still never had sex on my birthday :D

More From Yesterday

After we’d seen Sirqus Alfon me, (ex)boyfriend and Poi Girl went to Subway to eat something. There we talked a bit about Poi Girl’s birthday and the show. I helped her fix one, maybe two, DJs (she wants to host a rave-party). She also decided to tag along to see Sirqus Alfon again, this time from the beginning^^

That means she’s meeting my mum and my aunt. (ex)boyfriend thought it would be fun if she introduced herself as my girlfriend xD That would be kinda fun, even though my mum isn’t very homophobic. She did say that her “veranda-policy”* was equal opportunity when I met up with a girl I’d met on the queer community site xD

*When I was about forteen I asked my mum how she’d react if I got a boyfriend. She said she’d be sitting on the veranda with a sawed-off shotgun. This is now an inside family joke. When I did bring home a boyfriend at eightteen my mum loved him and there were no weapons anywhere close to home^^

COD

More on my dead uncle:
It wasn’t an overdose as my grandmother first though. It was some kinda poisonous infection or something. I get this info third hand so the details get a bit fuzzy… It sucks that he’s dead, but if it had been an OD it would have been worse I think. An OD is a stupid mistake that could’ve been avoided.

I’m still not sure how I’m supposed to feel about all of this though…

About My Uncle

I still don’t know what killed him, but I do know wich one of my father’s brothers it is now. It’s the one I’ve met. The one I actually have memories of. I don’t know exaclty when it was I met him, but it was many years ago… Might even be as many as ten years ago…

I e-mailed my father today and asked if they got the results from the autopsy yet…

I’m also not completely sure how to react to all of this.

Death

My uncle is dead. I’m not sure if I’ve ever met him actually… I think my dad said that I’ve only met one of his brothers, and I’m not sure with one of them. But still… It feels weird. He is family either we were close or not.

I replied to my dad’s e-mail (that he sent me June 16th) yesterday and he always replies within 24 hours. My uncle died the day before yesterday and they’re not completely sure why. They’re doing an autopsy tomorrow, but my grandmother suspects an overdose.

Gynaecologist

I went to see a gynaecologist today. First he asked me a couple of questions. Like what were my symptoms? (some irritation when peeing and pain in the lower back where it hurts during my period, my grandmother said it could be something with the ovaries), had I ever been pregnant? (no!), what had I been tested for so? far (UTI and chlamydia, both negative), was I on the Pill (nope, side effects didn’t agree with me), didn’t I use any contraceptive!?! (ehm, what?), oh, do you use condoms? (yeah…).

What’s with the assumed heterosexuality? And why assume that all women in fertile age who don’t want to be pregnant will be on the Pill? I was thisclose to saying that I only sleep with women actually xD

He didn’t find anything that explained my symptoms, but he found what it is that’s causing my irregular period. He looked at my ovaries and saw a lot of something that I don’t know the English word for (“äggblåsor”) and said it looked a bit like PCO, but not enough to give a diagnosis. But I might have trouble conceiving when/if I want kids.

Bike!

I went to pick up my new bike today :D :D :D I had to bike home from the shop and it took me about an hour and a half xD Oh, my legs are gonna hurt tomorrow xD

I love my new bike :D It’s white and green and very nice <3

I love my mum and aunt! :D

My Dad

The accident might’ve given me my dad back…

My Dad Called

The title says it all…

I got a call from a number I didn’t recognise with a country-code (?) I didn’t recognise either… And it was my dad who called.  He’d gotten my number from my brother and it was really weird talking to him actually. His speech was a bit blurred cos of his crushed jaw…

Anyway, I’m not really sure what to think yet…

Another Update on my Dad

He got to leave the hosspital today ^^ They are also planning on going to Sweden cos health care is so much cheaper for him her (Universal health care ftw!)