Happy New Year!

I hope you all had a wonderful 2008 and that 2009 will be even better!

I’m going to have dinner with (ex)boyfriend and his famiy and then we are goin gout to a huge party :D

Snow!

It’s snowing on my blog! :D

Skinny

I’m too skinny >< I really need to figure out a way not to lose more weight. Or rather, I need to find a way to not forget to eat. Damn eating disorder! Why can’t I just get rid of it and get hungry like a normal person! Right now even I think I’m skinny. And that says a lot… If I weight less than 50 kilos my BMI drops under 18. That’s bad! Very bad!

GaH!!!

Bliss

The past few times that I went out clubbing the bliss I usually feel on the dancefloor has been absent. Not so last Friday :D I had so much fun! I was out on the dancefloor A LOT! And not just the dancefloor I’m mostly used to (the techno-floor) but also some on one of the other dance floors in this club I usually go to.

I love just dancing, not having to think, not having to care about anything. I really, really love it! It makes me feel really good… I’d just made a poor choice when it came to clothes. I’d opted for jeans and a t-shirt. That’s waaaay too hot for bouncing around on the dance floor! So in the end I was wearing my bikini top and jeans.

The good thing with the bikini top was that temperature-wise it became a lot more bearable to be on the dance floor. The bad thing with it was that some people (two of the bouncers -.-) took it as an invitation to sexually harass me. Morons.

Pixie and Linda were there as well as a bunch of other people I know. A friend of Pixie thought he’d go home with me, but right now jumping in bed with strangers is not the best idea. Making out on the other hand…  :P

Pixie’s friend lives really close to me, so we shared a cad (he payed, but dropped me off on the way home^^). And I did tell him that I was going home alone, so it’s not like I led him on or anything! Tony got really worried when he found out we were sharing a cab though. Turns out Pixie forgot to tell me a few things about this “friend”. Some of the stuff Tony told me makes the label “date rapist” fit. I’m so glad I went home alone!

Relationship

I’ve almost stayed monogamous since we broke up… I say “almost” cos I made out with a couple of people, but that was more or less ok even when we were together. It hasn’t even been hard for me! I turned down sex with a guy I’m attracted to!

I love (ex)boyfriend. A lot. And I hope that we’ll end up together again. Right now we see each other pretty often and stuff like that… I love spending time with him!

*Relieved*

Yesterday I went to the “Ungdomsmottagning” closest to where I live now. It’s a clinic for young people (up to 23) where you can get information about sexual health stuff, prescriptions for birth control stuff (pill, patch, ring etc) as well as condoms. They can test you for STDs and pregnancies.

I went there to get a pregnancy test. I haven’t had my period in almost seven weeks I started getting worried…

First I got to see a therapist cos it was my first time there. She asked me a bunch of questions about my life. Like home situation, family situating, and have you ever been physically abused? Sexually? Are you sexually active? Monogamously so? Stuff like that…

I’m not pregnant by the way :P

Partying, not Clubbing

There is an application on facebook called “Friends for Sale”. There you can “buy” your friends and stuff :P I bought Pixie from one of her friends. He couldn’t afford to buy her back, and complained about it to her. Somehow that resulted in me getting invited to his party last weekend xD

Due to an idiot busdriver we missed the bus, and since it was Saturday evening they only went every half-hour. Thanks to another couple of Pixie’s friends we got picked up by car :D When we got to the party I was introdcued to the host. He was tall and drunk and looked like a manga-freak had styled his hair.

Among the hundred or so people at the party I thought I didn’t know anyone but Pixie. Turned out I was wrong. A friend of Ria, Andy, was there. I haven’t seen her in a really long time, so it was nice seeing her again.