Testing, testing

I got tested for HIV today. I might as well get tested properly xD If this comes back positive I’m seriously gonna freak !!

Thoughts on Reactions

On Batman’s reaction to me testing positive for chlamydia… If he tests positive there is no way in hell he got it from me. I tested negative around the time I was seeing him, and the only other people I slept with before him was my ex and E. My ex wasn’t sleeping with anyone but me and hadn’t for more than two years. He’d also tested negative after he started seeing me. E tested negative two months ago (so several months after we had sex). So if Batman tests positive it’s more likely that he gave it to me than the other way around.

So yeah, he’s got no reason to be pissed off!

I Might Win

Frog went to a party on Friday. There were a bunch of girls hitting on him and one of them was wearing a Sexy Nurse outfit. He said that had it not been for the chlamydia he would’ve lost our bet xD Frog is pretty much the only one where I have a chance to win a bet like this one ^^ He said he almost lost on the solo sex part xD

I’m so gonna win this! :D

Celibacy

I was talking to Frog yesterday… Both of us have to be celibate for the ten days we are on antibiotics. It’s actually illegal for me to do anything with anyone that could risk spreading the infection xD So I said that I was thinking about celibacy for a longer time than that.. Cos I don’t wanna get another infection. Next time it could be something much worse than chlamydia.

“As long as you make an exception for me,” Frog said.
“Well, that depends on you,” I said. If I didn’t sleep with anyone but him and he continued sleeping around I wouldn’t lower the risk.
“You know what that would mean?” Frog asked me.
“Monogamy” I said.
“AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaa” we both went.
“That’s so not baby steps,” Frog said.

Then I started thinking about requiring all potential partners to test negative first. Frog figured out that would mean two weeks of celibacy after every time he slept with someone else than me, so he said if that was the case he could just be monogamous anyway… xD

Anyway, for now we have a bet. The first person who has any kind of  sex (even oral, manual and solo) loses. The loser has to ask permission from the other person if they wanna do anything sexual with anyone (including making out). If we lose by sleeping with each other both have to ask permission xD I’m so no losing xD Frog said he thought about losing on purpose just to see how mean I would be :P

Reactions

On my way to pick up my medicine for the chlamydia I sent out a text to everyone I’ve slept with since my last negative test. This are some of the reactions I got:

Batman: Fuuuuu!! (very mature don’t you think? Idiot…)
Emo Boy: Don’t you always use condoms?
Paul: Ok. Thanks for the info.
E: Wow, not fun fo you :-/ i got tested two months ago and was negative, so I should be ok :) (I haven’t written about when I had sex with him here… It was just two days before the accident with the condom. It was a threesome with us two and my ex :D)
Raven: : /
My ex: get well soon and I hope your day gets better after a morning like this. It could be worse, you could’ve been pregnant too ;)
Cute Geek: Fuuuuuuuccckkkkk!!! (He’s never been tested and had been hoping I would test negative so he would’t have to get teste)

Frog was there when I got the call and he just laughed.. Then he apologised xD He’s the most likely source for this infection xD

fuckfuckfuck

I tested positive >< Fucken great…

I was there to tell them all the people I’ve slept with since I got tested the last time… Was about seven and I had names and phone numbers and addresses and birthdays for pretty much all of them xD Oh, and I had been really good with condoms too. The nurse said that I had been really unlucky ><

FUCK!!

Frog just got his results from his last STI-screening. He tested positive for chlamydia… I really hope I’m still clean.

The Talk

I had “the talk” with Frog this weekend. The “what are we to each other” and “where are we headed”.

None of us are ready for relationships. None of us are completely over our exes. Both of us have some trouble with monogamy (me more than him though, he’s said that he could be monogamous but for him to be that it would have to be mutual or else he might get jealous).

Oh, and labels scare us both.. so we’ll go on like we’ve done so far ^^

Vibrator vs. Frog

Frog got me off so many times that the vibrator doesn’t stand a chance…. That guy is seriously good in bed..

You

“What are you thinking about?” I asked
“You,” he said. Then he looked me right in the eyes and added “without clothes”

Vibrator

I bought my first vibrator today ^^ So worth the 229SEK it costed me xD

First Time

If you think that you lose your virginity the first time you willingly have intercourse I lost my virginity three years and a day ago xD (Prior to that I’d had oral sex and been raped…)

Safe

Right now I don’t feel completely safe with Frog. He says that he likes me “maybe a bit too much” but he isn’t very good at showing it. He also doesn’t notice when he’s pushing my boundaries until he’s crossed them and I get pissed off.

So I’m going to talk to him about it, and if it doesn’t get better I’m not gonna see him as much. If he can’t respect me and my boundaries it doesn’t matter how much fun we have at other times.

Paul Again

Paul texted me last night and wanted to get back in touch…..

Photo shoot

From the photo-shoot with Raven ^^ We figured the best way for me to now look like a deer caught in headlights was for my face to not be visible ^^